The Freedom of Brokenness

I think everyone’s broken in some way or another. Some of us are better at disguising it than others. We often walk around with masks on to cover up the shame, sadness, abuse, hurt, etc. We practice our smiles, cover our tear blushed faces with makeup, and clean ourselves up before we go to work, school, church, and everywhere. Why? Well that’s what everyone else does, isn’t it? We are so scared of showing the real us. Many of us fear that if we were to be truly seen as vulnerable as we are that people that we respect would hurt us, pity us, take advantage of us, abuse us, talk about us behind our backs, or look down at us. We often believe that we could not handle this.

And so often we turn to idols that never follow through with their offers. We turn to success, money, sports, entertainment, fame, ego, popularity, and you name it, we love it. But how much of the false idols that we turn to are just our way of hiding? Hiding from who we really are? From who we were made to be? From who God has called us to be?

How do I know so much about the brokenness of this lifestyle? I have been there. I am there with everyone. I know, it’s a vicious circle that often spirals around like a roller coaster, offering us blessing and leaving us broken.  With all of the judgmental people, the competition, the comforts of sitting back and living life easy and away from danger, who wouldn’t?

I have just one question for the reader, do you truly believe that God loves you? I know, we say it every Sunday, “God loves me,” or “Jesus loves me.” But do we truly understand?

Romans 5:8 says “but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”

Earlier in that chapter it says, “because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly.”

In Romans 8 it says, “For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!” The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him.”

And there are many more passages in the ocean of the Bible describing God’s great love for His people.

But do you really know it? We often go to church, greet everyone with a smile or a hug, do our duty and go home and hope to do better the next week than we did before. And we never really feel quite good enough. Remember, while we were YET sinners. Not after we did good enough. While we were yet in the very worst of our dirt, rebellion, shame, anger, rage, hate, lust, abuse, and filth. It seems like in the Bible, Jesus never really hangs out with the people who are doing well on the outside. He’s always spending His time with the sinners, tax collectors, thieves, and prostitutes. While we were yet sinners. That’s love! That is unconditional, radical, sacrificial, and servant love!

It gets so exhausting putting on the mask, the façade, the face paint that we wear to look like our lives are so perfect. We even excuse it by saying that once we are converted that we should fly around with angel wings, a harp, and a halo, never dealing with the struggles of sin and brokenness again. But God’s kingdom is not of this world. We are not yet made perfect because the work isn’t done yet. There are so many dying, broken, hurting people around us who are crying inside and outside for help, but we truly have nothing to offer them until we can confess one thing. That we, like them, are broken.

So let me ask you again, do you believe God loves you? That the massive God who created the universe, the stars, the clouds, the mountains, and the planets, just absolutely adores you? That he looks at you and your brokenness and that He says, there is the vessel I want to build my personal kingdom with? There is the bride I want to marry? There is the apple of my eye? That He is blown off his feet for you. That He longs for you, pursues you, chooses you, and ultimately died for you?

If we truly believe that He loves us, we will be amazed. Yes, so amazed that we will mold our lives around that love. We will let go of everything for it. Our lives, our time, money, success, and all of our idols. We will not be afraid. We will not want to hide because we will feel so free. So free from the comparison of envy. So free from caring about the persecution of others. So free from measuring up. Why? Because God Almighty is just blown away by the sight of us.

I want to encourage the reader that God does love you. Exactly where you are at. Don’t be afraid to be broken. Be broken. Be loved. Rest, live, and walk in the love that God has displayed for you on the Cross that He chose to bear to save you. To take you home in His wonderful Arms. He’s holding you and leading you through the storm you are in so don’t be afraid. He’s bigger.

Do you believe that He loves you? I do because as the nursery hymn goes, “the Bible tells me so.”

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